How would you know if someone loves you when suddenly he wants to give up everything you two have?
We’ve been together for almost a year. We’re just like any other couples we love each other so much, we talk to each other like there’s no tomorrow. He’s a very nice guy. I cant seem to find the best word to describe him, for me he’s almost the perfect guy a girl could dream of.
Our relationship was out of the blue, no one even me saw it coming. It was really unexpected we just woke up one day realizing the fact that we’re already inlove with each other.
At first everything seemed to be perfect, it was like a fairytale we were both happy and inlove with each other, but just like any other relationship we also have our own ups and downs. But we’re too strong to let these problems break us. We argue sometimes but we never let a day pass that we never talk to each other and fix the mess between us. He was the guy i dreamed to have.
But things changed, everything seemed to be on their right path, but just like what they say people change. Change is the only permanent thing in this world. After our 14th month had passed i feel like he lost interest in me, in our relationship. He started to treat me coldly, i dont know what happened. I dont know if i did something wrong. He’s the type of the person who doesnt tell me if there’s a problem or not because he doesnt want me to worry about it.
It has been a week since he asked to be alone, he said he needed some time and space. I love him so much so i told him that i’ll give him enough time to think about us. I dont want to just throw away our relationship just like that. I want to make things work so im making it happen.
I told myself that after the time i gave him if he still wants to put and end to our relationship i’ll willingly set him free.
I may be tired from all the pain and all but breaking up is not a solution. If you really love the person but you’re tired of all the shit you can take a break. Magpahinga ka, hindi pagsuko ang solusyon sa lahat ng problema. Kung mahal mo talaga lumaban ka hanggat alam mong kaya mo pa, hanggat alam mong may ipaglalaban ka pa. Kapit lang. Laban lang. Hindi man mangyari ung gusto mo, alam naman ni God kung ano makakabuti para sayo.
A lot of People says that ”You should accept the fact that he loves someone else now and he doesn’t care for you ANYMORE!” i know but i can’t just accept it as fast as i fell inlove with him.
Weeks passed we haven’t talked to each other. Actually he’s sick that time and he needs to undergo head operation when i first heard that i was really shocked i cried i don’t know what to do. I wanted to be by his side to take care of him but i can’t. I’m really worried at him i don’t know what to do. I always think about him that time i am so paranoid about his state. He won’t reply to any of my text messages that’s why i feel worried about him.
After his operation……………………………………………….
The OLD US changed.
Sometimes he won’t reply to my messages and tweets, he won’t talk to me and if he does it’s not the usual convo that we had before i mean it’s not the old "SWEET" convo that we had.
As his bestfriend i know my limitations.
And as his SECRET LOVER i know my place and i know what actions to do.
So i decided not to text him anymore coz i think he doesn’t like talking to me anymore or he’s trying to avoid me for a reason that i do not know.
It’s hard for me to do these things coz’ i’m not used to it.
Days and Weeks passed i received a text from him. After reading the text i come to my nerves that maybe i should forget everything that we had back then. I realized that maybe he’s not texting me is because he’s busy with his GIRLFRIEND.
It tore me apart knowing he’s INLOVE with someone else and someone else is making him happy like what i did before.
That night after i read that text from him i can feel my tears falling down i can’t stop them. It hurts. It HURTS so much! It HURTS so bad! I can’t stop myself from crying because i know that time it’s the only thing i can do to make myself feel much better. To ease and lessen the pain.
After that night i realized that maybe i should let go of the feelings i have for him, the memories we used to have that i treasure most and the FRIENDSHIP we HAD. After all he’s the reason why i ended-up deciding these things.
So the end this up i wanted to tell “YOU” something
First of all i would like to say…………………………….
THANK YOU for everything. You’re always there when i needed someone to talk to. When i am feeling down and sad you’re always there to make me smile. When i feel like i don’t have no one you’re always there to make me feel that there’s this one person who’s willing to stay by my side. Thank you for all the happy memories. Thank you for being my DADDY and BESTFRIEND at the same time. And Thank you for everything through GOOD TIMES and BAD you never left me.
SORRY for all the troubles i caused you. For lying to you about having a boyfriend. For pretending that i like someone else, I am sorry for not telling you about what i really feel towards you, and for LYING and PRETENDING that i don’t LOVE you when the truth is that i am secretly INLOVE with you.
I don’t know if you’re reading this right now but one thing for sure after you read this, things will be changing for SURE. I know you will start avoiding me for REAL don’t worry im used to it. I know you will stop texting me nor tweet me don’t worry i know that’ll happen. I know you might block me or what don’t worry i know you might do that. But i want you to know that i won’t regret the fact that i met you and i fell inlove with you. Why? Because you made me a better and stronger person right now.
I decided to tell you how i really feel about you para naman di ko tinatago lang after all dati pa yun. Kinalimutan ko na yung nararamdaman ko (DRAMA!) HAHA pero honestly yeah kinalimutan ko na nga.
And by the way don’t ever think that i grab the chance pag kasama kita. Wag mong isipin na sinasamantala ko yung pagkakataon, kasi pag kasama kita i keep in mind na BESTFRIEND tayo. It depends on you if you will believe me or not after all im not going to please you to believe me basta i just wanted to tell you everything. Ayoko na kasi magtago or magsinungaling pa :)
Don’t worry i won’t bother you anymore i know how you will feel about this so i think maybe let’s just pretend that NOTHING HAPPENED i know it’s not that easy but i know time will allow that to come. Don’t worry kinalimutan ko na lahat! :) I’ll be happy and you should do the same okay? :) Live life to the fullest dude.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING :)
And also for the last time let me tell you how much …………………………………………………………………
I LovED YOU :)
Pagaling ka ha! Kailangan sa susunod na makita kita if ever may buhok ka na! HAHAHAHA Pray always. Take care! :) GODBLESS :)
but it hurts too much
I try to forgive,
but it’s not enough to make it all okay”
Just got home from somewhere with my daddy/bestfriend. Actually it’s an unexpected meeting kasi bigla na lang siya nagtext out of nowhere na he’s going to SM eh he knows na andun ako kaya ayun.
I was kinda late kasi i went to my girlfriend’s house to visit tita kasi she miss me na daw so ayun. Pagdating ko sa SM i was looking for him and nagulat ako kasi nagpakulay nga pala siya ng hair so ayun, di ko siya masyado nakilala agad.
The usual thing naglalakad kami ayaw niya magpahawak sakin ang ARTE niya talaga nakakaasar haha. Ikot-ikot lang kami tapos umupo kami sa may foodcourt.
While sitting naguusap kami bout sa hair niya HAHAHAHA ang weird kasi for me he really looks like gay and nakaka-ilang pa kasi pag nagkakatinginan kami umiiwas ako kaya ayun tuloy natanong ako kung bakit di ko siya matignan. Di naman ako makasagot -________-
Nagaasaran na naman kami ehhh mapangasar yung mokong na yun kaya naiirita ko sa kanya tapos pinipilit niya ko na ihahatid niya ko sa bahay ehh ayoko kasi nga baka kung ano isipin ng ibang tao samin pero tagong kilig ako HAHAHA
Natatawa pa ko kasi ang drama niya basta kulang ata sa lambing yung mokong na yun kanina kaya gusto magpalambing :”>
Ayun kakaasaran namin nairita ko sa kanya so sabi niya umuwi na kami eh di nauuna ko maglakad nagulat ako INAKBAYAN ako bigla tapos nung aalisin ko kamay niya hinawakan niya kamay ko ng mahigpit nawindang ako. Di naglalakad na kami palabas ng mall hinawakan niya balikat ko tapos hawak ko yung kamay niya habang naglalakad.
AWKWARD soooooooooooooobbbbbrrrraaa! Kasi pinagtitinginan kami ng mga tao, di ko naman alam bakit.
Sabay kami naglakad pauwi pero di niya na ko hinatid kasi medyo hilo na siya and gabi na kasi medyo hassle na sa kanya kaya next time na lang ulit :”>
Di masyadong maganda nangyari nung pauwi ako pero okay lang nakasama ko naman siya eh :)